Wasting time writing

What is the story about?

It was about something, now it’s something else…

Why can’t there be an easy story to write? Why do I need to do a trial and error to nail down what the story is about?

I can’t… I just can’t continue writing, because all of a sudden, it’s different from what it was before. All that work feels wasted, like, there must be a better way to do this…

I don’t care that it might be a master piece eventually because it is not worth spending so much time on stuff that you never gonna use.

Am I a perfectionist or is it a learning curve? Will it become easier over time or am I doomed to write and abandon stories because they will eventually stop making sense…

I never plan, it seems counterintuitive to plan out something you know nothing about. A story takes form as I write about it. Perhaps I need to do both? Just write then plan things out; write and plan over and over until it make sense… The characters grows, the plot grows, I grow.

Or maybe I’ll just have to pick a story where I have something to say… I have some of those. Why haven’t I picked them out before…?