Simple Life – Very Short Story

Dave goes to the bar. He has a beer every Tuesdays and two beers on Mondays. Sometimes he takes a beer on Thursdays too but never on Friday because that’s when Lena is working. She cries a lot when she talks about her life. Granted, she gives him free drinks so he’s obliged to listen.

Dave’s work takes him deep into the forest where this old man lives. The old man lives in a run down milk farm but the cows are long gone. There’s sheep and some horses grazing on his land but they’re not his. Dave helps fix the fences that constantly break even though it’s not part of his job. Dave sometimes have to stay the night to make sure the old man doesn’t put something in his mouth and suffocate. The old man pays him fairly well for this and he was decent to Dave but they didn’t speak much anyhow. The old man kept his business to himself. The only thing that bothered Dave was how the house smelled. He much preferred the old, rundown, barn. On stormy nights the house creaked. The old man had a tendency to howl when he was asleep and Dave walked into his bedroom sometimes to make sure he wasn’t turning into a wolf, which was also one of the old man’s fears. Sometimes the old man forgot that he didn’t have any cows anymore and accused Dave of stealing the milk. A stern talking often solved the issue and the old man was usually very regretful afterwards and made his signature dish as repentance: porridge, pork and green beans. It was delicious. The old man was keen to keep Dave around because he was a good worker. Dave was only a good worker because he afforded himself a couple beers every so often, at least so he said.

In truth, he preferred the animals over the old man and he would take every opportunity that he could to pet them. Dave liked animals because they were never mean or boring, but most of all, they were quiet. Dave didn’t talk much either, if he could help it. All in all, he liked his simple little life. Maybe one day he would do more important things, something only he could do. Then he would never have to talk to anyone again, or so he dreamed.

Opens at four

The bar was closed. I could’ve swore they opened at noon. Maybe it was wishful thinking.

I had a beer at another place instead. The beer wasn’t very good; they didn’t have the kind I liked, and the seats were uncomfortable. It’s the leave after you’re done eating kind of place, even though it’s never busy.

The children cry in the background and clueless adults stumble over their words and they have no idea what they are going to order… The confusion at the register is painful to watch. But I don’t blame them, Swedes don’t usually eat out, we forget how to act in public, sometimes. We do know how to work, though.

Not I.

The waiter dropped a tray of cups at my feet and the shards scattered everywhere like cluster munition, shredding my pants and shoes. Blood splattered in a half circle around me. They apologise but I didn’t care. I’m not going anywhere and the bleeding stopped eventually.

There’s still beer left in the glass and it take a while still to write a story.

don’t be scared – essay

Dave had an affliction. People talked to him, out of the blue. He figured he must be very approachable, perhaps he had a kind face?

People said that they felt safe around him, like he knew what he was doing, reliable even. But that’s not true, he’s just very good at pretending. Even in new places, that he’s never been before, even as he gawked and observed his new surroundings, people came up to him asking for the way. He didn’t even speak their language but they still thought he was one of them.

What about his gawking at the buildings, his stumbling around along the streets, occasionally looking at the map for direction, translated to ‘this guy knows what’s up!’ Did he look that confident? And if so, did that confidence stem from ignorance? Probably. Life is not all that serious, he’s not afraid of death. Maybe that’s it, the ultimate end doesn’t scare him.

You can breeze through life pretty easily if you aren’t scared. He’s probably not scared enough! He’s not an idiot, though, he just spend too much time thinking, forgetting what’s around him, losing himself and smiling. Yeah, that’s it, it’s the smile. Only idiots smile when they got no apparent reason to.

In reality, Dave was the one with the least control in the world. He let whatever happen happen and accepted it. He put faith in something he couldn’t comprehend or explain. An idiot.

Perhaps all of us would feel better if we accepted things that were out of our control?

being productive – essay

There’s something so unimaginably strange about being an adult. You have responsibility not only to yourself but to society at large. I didn’t ask for that kind of pressure. Everything about society becomes your problem too, somehow, whether it is the train running late or someone’s car breaking down on the highway – a family member dying. The worst part is that you have to contribute to be allowed to exist in it. Everyday I try to find my way back to when this wasn’t the case, instead of filling the void in my head with more stuff that I don’t care about. When I’m bored I feel like a criminal…

I care about things, small things. I don’t care for the future, though, it’s not that I don’t believe in it, there’s much to be optimistic about and I’m sure things will turn out all right. It’s just that adults ‘only’ think about the future, a happier future when all the shit they’ve gone through will be worth it. It doesn’t sit right with me. I want to be happy now and I want to keep marveling at things I didn’t know before. Perhaps it’s society’s way to get me off my ass and do something?

I’ve always done what’s best for me, whether I get fired or yelled at, it doesn’t matter. I trust that something good will come of it if I stay honest. The problem is, I don’t know what I am just yet. Those discoveries happen when you are alone and you have to figure everything out on your own. It’s a hassle, when you think about it.

Everything you do must be a means to an end, montised or a stepping stone. Even videogames feels like a chore; you gotta finish them, finish reading that book – accomplish something… What’s wrong with just having fun? How do I detach myself as an adult? It happens sometimes but not for long, I’m painfully aware about the present, the past and to a lesser extent the future. I can’t even enjoy the present because I have to stop and confirm that I’m having fun. Why do I need to do that? Whose validation am I after? Why do I have to make that conclusion?

If I look back at all the fun times I’ve had then I know the child is truly dead.

a bad trip – very short story

The toaster on the windshield (that I’ve had for years) suddenly shot the bread sideways. A net that was attached to the toaster caught the bread. I don’t know why I thought that was an interesting observation, but it was somehow strange to me… On the street the police was dressed in blue and had helmets but instead of batons they had big axes strapped to their belts that bumped against their legs as they walked. I suppose it was to hack at criminals, perhaps to throw at them? It was a big axe, though and I couldn’t imagine it flying very far. Do the firemen wear pistols instead? The firemen kills fires, I guess that makes sense…

There were some bars and hookers downtown. The hookers ran the bars and there were some gangsters but the gangsters didn’t bother the hookers and instead they killed each other over the scraps in the city; the liquor stores and shopping centers. I wasn’t entirely sure why the gangsters didn’t bother the hookers but the hookers shot liquor out of their breasts when they danced. It wasn’t very strong liquor but I thought it was noteworthy.

According to the news a dog named Jasper was president. He barked at the questions at the interviewer and he growled if they didn’t give him a treat every so often. He was a good dog so nobody complained much. The TV screen in front of me was round and big and flat, like a mirror. I felt like I’ve seen TV’s that were square but I wasn’t sure. There was also a bit more color than I remembered…

At least my piss is still yellow and my shit is brown. That I remember clearly.

I don’t know…

….that about sums it up, doesn’t it?

but that’s part of the charm

of living.

Did I make the right choice?

What will happen if I do this – don’t do that?

what do I gain?

…life is not all that serious anyhow.

I didn’t turn out the master like I thought, big deal!

I had fun along the way.

And honestly, what else is there?

Except keep wondering.

It’s done, your choices are part of you now.

Then you grow old and wonder where all the dreams went.

Did you try them?

Old people think a lot because

they’ve seen much and

heard a thing or two…

There’s no mystery left in the world

then.

The world is like I see it

I know it.

Perhaps I can dodge around the

question

a while longer

before I have to

make the

final call.

Argus – Very Short Story

When the Crown Jewels were lost in the Great War, there was little reason to continue fighting as they were the only source of power that meant anything in the galaxy and people became hopeful that maybe this would usher in an era of peace.

In the spawn of human years, that might be case, even though humans have the capability to live forever ever since they got rid of god. When god was taken out, men became gods themselves and made up their own laws and they took up residence at the centre of the galaxy where God had been hiding. God was quite surprised when we found him and he had indeed forgotten that he made us. God went under the assumption that all his creations had failed and it turned out that he was a failed god with tens of thousands of mistakes. He was quite happy before we killed him because he had at least one success.

We killed him because we were angry with the laws that bound us to our little planet. After thousands of generations and wars, we lost our home planet and no one remembers where it is. There are people alive today that are still looking for it. They believe humanity will be redeemed if we go back to our roots even though god was dead. They are a strange bunch.

Humanity had taken control of their destiny but we continue to make war. Maybe one day we will penetrate the bounds of our galaxy and maybe then we will find another race which likes fighting as much as we do and they will keep us entertained for a while. Perhaps that’s what made us so successful because we love fighting, to destroy and then rebuild. We keep the world interesting. For the time being we will remain in Argus until we go to far with our wars or maybe we can be redeemed still?

a painted picture – poem

The screeching faltered
light burst through the earth
and everything was blown away
dust lingered in the air
and the trees upended with roots.
Her hair was splayed on the stone slab
that had the corners torn off
her body was somewhere
and the earth around it
was tainted with blood

The Vines – Poem

great vines smothered the trees

splayed out on the grass

and

over gravestones.

some of the stones were tilted

most of them forgotten

the snow put a layer on everything

and all was dead

except the vines.

the vines grew and grew

and people 

they

Kept dying.

out of cigarettes – very short story

“Shit, I’m sick of this,” he said, shivering by the campfire. His ship lay moored on the small harbour in a dead village with no one in sight; with burned down buildings and probably some dead bodies too somewhere. It was warmer on the ship, of course, but the voice of his comrade’s shrieks drove him crazy so he opted to stay on land.

He tossed the butt of his last cigarette into the fire, it went up in flames with a pleasant smell, or so he imagined. He crumpled the empty package and tossed it in too, The plastic burnt first, then the cardboard. He looked at his friends, who were also shivering.

They shook their heads. “I’m out,” his friends said.

The mist was heavy but the fog was eaten by their campfire and they could see each other, and the ground around them, clearly. It felt safe that way. The light from the fire gave a murky, sort of sickly glow to the air, mostly green and yellow but there were also other colors.

A wounded cry echoed from the ship, sounding like a broken trumpet coming out from the doorway. “Who left the door open?” he said, patting his rifle by his side. It felt safer that way.

His friends shrugged. All of this was of course tolerable if they just had some more cigarettes to smoke.